What a responsibility! Raising children. Think about it. What you do, how you behave, how you react, what you eat, what you look like naked…We are completely exposed. The mood swings. The temper tatrums. And, yes, I am talking about the parents. And we think to ourselves –well, I don’t want to set a bad example, so I had better…–The self-restraint that we try to impose upon ourselves so that we are always doing the right thing, is that healthy?
My stepdaughter is about to get her learner’s permit for driving. So she is paying attention when I drive now. Great. I can’t run yellow lights anymore. I have to come to a full stop on red and at stop signs. I have to do the speed limit. I have to use my turn signal. I have to be the perfect driver so that I am setting a good example for her to follow. And then my daughter gets her’s next year. So, they are both watching every move I make. “Why are you going 42, the speed limit is 45?” ” Omigod, you totally could have made that light! Why did you stop?” And I am grinding my teeth and thinking–because I don’t want you to run any yellow lights—
So, is this the right thing to do or should I still put on my lip gloss and look in the visor mirror while I steer with my knees. And what about those days we are running late and I am taking them to dance, and I just finished a run but I didn’t have time to eat. Sometimes, I eat a bowl of pasta or something while I am driving down the road. Do I have to stop that now? Do you think they remember that I did that and one day they are going to do that and then what kind of mother am I? Not to mention now they realize that I have replied to their texts while I was driving and said–I’m at the light. I’m almost there–What? I was texting and driving? I was at a light, I say in my own defense. Doesn’t matter…
Well, I’d love to keep blogging, but I don’t want to stay on the computer too long. Don’t want to set a bad example!